'm on vacation, most of the day (if not all day) I spend at my house, maybe you do because I am very ambitious (at not getting a job or a boyfriend of the season, as many often do) or simply trying to "seize" the most of this season -sleeping until 9:00 am, breakfast in bed watching "Comic" or those early morning programs Colombian television, a symbol of idiocy and why I'm not proud of being Colombian (ie partial); finished reading that book had not had the opportunity given the many academic activities and become a fan fucking pussy how much is in the "Carelibro" visit (with no sexual interest, but if by gossip) the ManHunt that ... and I found some gems (my ex-boyfriend, my best school friend, best friend my best friend from university, the ex-boyfriend of my ex-boyfriend), in a nutshell this site gathers virtually "all" those ", per se ... Quite different.
However I'm tired of the holidays, and even if it is not because I go next semaname trip, I would go to study as soon as possible .. I know it sounds but the most prudish "ahhh home to me is knowing what the pigeons shit," that is becoming so monotonous, see the face of my younger brother, without mentioning a word, to perceive their attitude of superiority over my
- "Ahh, it's ten in the morning and this idiot is still in pajamas, has not tended bed, there as a vile hindrance watching TV and eating what I have prepared .. Ehh what Unhappy "
never mentioned anything about my brother, and certainly I must admit that at times like these, the Holidays," is when I better I know, because we are part of the day together.
He has 18 years, is about to enter his first semester of college, though he is younger than me, is taller and robust (if he ate his vegetables wise) is more creative and disciplined " Son of a bitch "to me. He has much ego and not ... he does not use that shampoo.
Today we were having lunch when I asked something about a mattress that had seen yesterday with my parents in a warehouse superstores, his answer made me very uncomfortable (not because I had mentioned some sort of position contained in the Kamasutra), was simply because it made me feel like a more stripped, where what he thinks and believes is more than the others.
was so bothered me so much his attitude and his words to me, which gave him a "Punching across the nose with my index and middle fingers," and did not know what reaction he would.
I and as usual when "fucked", I went to run, thinking he would come to destroy "That Flesh fleeing." To my surprise he stayed in the dining room table very quiet and there entered my mom.
The next scene immediately reminded me of our childhood, he began to mourn (it did so "angry" but not because she had felt hurt "That I-)
As his tears made me feel more responsible for my outburst, telling me things like:
- "Those who stick to the face are Guariche" ; - "is that you are a fag ... men stuck in the body, not in the face" . And the cruelest thing is that he was absolutely right in that regard.
finished lunch, my mom, My brother and I, my mother being an intermediary for "Breaking the tension." At the end note that he had "poked" the left eye and I felt much more wreck. Then my mom approached me cautiously and whispered that he apologize to him (my brother).
That happened about six hours ago, and already being 9:56 pm I have not initiated any discussions with him. And I understand if he did not talk to me, I acted like everything I hate most.
And what hurts me most besides the previous situation ... I do not know to apologize to a person who has hurt and that makes me feel very, very vulnerable.
From this virtual environment (for now, as I face what tomorrow will come) - "Ole Andrew, excuse me, really know that I screwed up really bad. About the "punch" I did on impulse, I do not want to hurt (in fact I think I am more hurt than you). I hope not to create any type of grudge but ... Please, leave part of being well (Like what?, Like me, that is, an impulsive, half-contemptuous and fucking time). "
